Hi.
I do feel awkward typing on my own blogger field.
The reason why I decided to start writing again is probably mainly because I just realized that Ive been loving writing for years for a hundred times. And when I do feel sooooo excited to hugkiss my blog again after months it only makes me wonder, why would I ever stop writing?
Well you know it maybe sounds a lil naive because deep inside my heart I ever feel like I recently dont really like the 'old me' when I used to go to mum to complain about this short life, to my friends to borrow their shoulders to cry, and even to blog to write down things about my personal life which I DID think that people really should know. I believe that everyone has ever felt that way, ever sometimes hate a part of their vulnerable and easily change human hearts. But for some reasons that I cant even explain, as I feel like I'm getting older and soon will kiss a social label they put to a teenager who pretends to be all mature called 'adult', I realize that I've learned more than a lot from things Ive experienced in life. Well, my life, and other people's life. Every lil thing Ive acted on must lead me to what I'm becoming now, and now I do know that so far I respect and love myself better than several years ago, when I went to school from 7 to 3 and did more laughing than studying. So now I often think that, why would I even bother thinking that I should repair any broken piece I experienced in the past? That thought just lead me back here, my holy grail (well, beside books, internet connection and mascara) formed as a site called Blogger.
I feel like, I really should write again with different kind of writings since I'm now a college student which people can expect that I can be slightly smarter than several years ago. Thats why I deleted most of my posts hahahaha no no dont get me wrong! Frankly, I love most of my writings lol but most of them dont really fit my way of thinking at the present time either. But I still leave some posts about good good memories I had back when I was in school, when I was just happily vulnerable as a teen and liked to smile too wide because of the braces and my friends often made fun of my cheeks. Thats why, I'm writing again even though I dont really give a damn to disclaimers or anonymous or other blabla people whom I dont encourage to visit my site cause I do what I love. And writing here again seems so exciting like it's the very first time I create a fresh and new blog.
In case somebody out there is wondering how different I am now compared to myself years ago, Im now just a second semester college student that goes abroad, and still cant sleep in this quiet midnight, and will be having 9 to 5 schedule for classes tomorrow, and currently feeling awkward in my own account.